Mo[n][m]ster Madness

The monster in you unleashes the mom-ster in me
Begging and pleading for the monster to set you free
Setting aside the needs of all else
Believing my fight can reclaim your health

F*** off! you say
The monster controls the games you play
Lying, stealing - perception blurred by the sickness
The mom-ster would do anything to light up the bleakness

It’s natural for me to take care of you
 To kiss away the pain and apply the glue 
To keep you from falling apart
All while attempting to shield my heart

Deeply connected as we so are
My body knows from afar
Echoing the monster's roar through my veins
I remind mom-ster that only you can break the chains

My love for you goes to infinity and beyond
Mom-ster would feed monster and annihilate that bond
As long as you're breathing, I have hope
That you find your reason to turn your back on dope.

To be continued…..

It’s monster for the final win
I'll never be mom-ster again
I held your hand and kissed your forehead
So hard to leave you in that hospital bed

During your final inpatient detox
We had one of our text message talks
You sent a verse of a poem that you'd written to me
Your fight with the monster, you wanted to be free

“Thought so deep I’m going to drown
In my head and all around
I am blind with open eyes
Filled with salt from tears I cry
Days are long, sleepless nights
A better life, nowhere in sight."

Oh my beautiful, beautiful boy
I will not let monster steal my joy
Your freedom came at the highest cost
Mama bear, not mom-ster, the monster crossed

I know you’d want me to be happy for you
No more fighting, like a bird you flew
Months earlier, I told you that if you left this earth
You'd take a part of me with you, for what that was worth

So many people are coming together to celebrate your life
You were and are loved, despite your internal strife
Stories of your kindness fill me with pride
I welcome you always, my heart open wide.

                                                                                Be free my beautiful boy….